I am supposed to ovulate soon.  Today is CD 16 and my stupid little clearblue monitor says it’s not quite go time yet.  Which would explain why I was late last month.  Apparently my perfect little 28 day cycles are gone.  Which worries me.  Am I ovulating later because my eggs are crap and taking longer to grow?  Which means it’s basically pointless anyway?! *sigh*

This past weekend I started thinking about adoption again.  Even went to my old agency’s website.  And then I started looking at the numbers.  It would cost as much or more than an egg donor cycle.  And I would probably get pregnant on an egg donor cycle.  Or we could do one of the shared risk cycles where we get all of our money back if it didn’t work (which we then could use to adopt).

The problem is, we can’t afford it now.  Which makes me crazy fucking mad.  Either option would cost about 20k.  It’s just not fair.  The next time someone tells me to “just adopt” I’m going to ask them if they plan on writing the checks.

I guess I just have to wait.  Maybe we’ll get lucky.  Maybe we won’t.  But when the husband finishes school in 3-4 years we should be able to afford it.

 

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